I went to a wedding this weekend back home. I knew everyone in the wedding party and a lot of the guests that came to show support. As I sat there a million memories flooded my mind involving those around me, some which I had not seen or talked to in over 4 years. As the wedding proceeded I felt myself almost leave my body(stick with me) almost as if I was removing myself to see this from a different view point. I looked and saw a happy bride and groom, supportive parents, and a church full of happy faces. Then I looked and saw a girl watching the people with joy and hurt. Old wounds, fears, and tears flooded her mind. The room began to suffocate her, she took deep breaths and tried to focus on the wedding.
She knew that no one in the room saw her as what she was but what she had been. The wounds of the past reared their heads fresh and painful. I looked down and saw her fight back tears and caught myself holding my breath. I knew that pain and understood the hurt because it was me. Who knew that one wedding could do all that to a girl. I am thankful that God has given me what he has and blessed me with amazing friends and people who love me for who I am and what I am working to become.
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