As Thanksgiving is approaching I have been reflecting back on a commitment I was challenged to make at my parents church last year. We spent Thanksgiving in Michigan and on Sunday the pastor talked about prayer and being committed to prayer. He challenged us to pray for a year and see what God would do. When Dan and I got home I sat down with my journal and thought about what was on my heart, what was close to my heart, and what I would love to see God's movement in. I had three categories family, friends, and personal issues that I wanted to commit to God during my devotional time...
...and then I began to pray.
I won't say it was easy...there have been some really hard days this year, busy times when I haven't been able to be as diligent as I would like. I have fought with God over wanting to do my devotions and other days when I can't spend enough time with Him. I have adding things to my list and crossed other things off; because things have changed.
As I looked over my journal this morning I felt sad at how some of my hopes for my community have not come to pass, how things I wished for still seem distant, and than I realized something.
Something I was confronted with, the simplest and yet most profound part...the things I have been praying for personally are now true or are coming true in my life! Things I have wept over and cried out to God for peace and understanding, things I have prayed for freedom from. The simple truth is that nothing in my community or personal relationships can change unless I am changing. I am the only one that can choose how I am going to act and what I am going to say "no" to. I am the only one who can think through how I want to respond and then act on it. If I want change to happen it has to start with me.
And yes, there are things I wish were different in some of my relationships and things I wish I could wave a magic wand and make things perfect but that doesn't allow God to work in me or in the other person. So pray....pray for the things you desire and wish to be true and invite God to show you how He is working in all the small details of your life. Take the challenge to be changed.