Learning

I'm learning to live with frustration, discontentment, and unrest. I feel as though I have been struggling through these last few days. By any standard it looks as though I had a normal and fun weekend, I hung out with various friends and did fun things. But inside I wrestle with my emotions, my self, and what God is trying to teach me. In talking to a friend today she told me I need to learn to see my weakness as strengths (she is not the first to tell me this).

It can be difficult to learn to see something in our lives as we have always known it and turn it upside down. Thus I am working to change and see where this process is going to take me. I am praying that God would keep me focused on what is going on now so I don't get caught up on the end result. It doesn't matter what that will be, change happens in the process. Though I am annoyed by this I know that it is the continued process of being refined and made new.

My so called life

Looking back and trying to lean forward for a peek into tomorrow is always interesting, because it never works out :) Try as I might and no matter what I think I want or need, God always has a surprise for me. The end of this week means I will have a semi normal life...well ok not really normal, I live with college students. This just means I have office hours, classes, and meetings. I am looking forward to getting settled.

The last month of my life has flown by but has been good. My new staff is fun and get a long great. I feel sort of ready to start classes again but am counting down till I graduate this Spring. I have moved into my new office...my very own which makes me smile as I sit looking around knowing I picked the colors, curtains, and paintings. I enjoyed my first official day off yesterday and smiled as I put on jeans and a t-shirt as I prepared to get groceries. It is always amazing how much you learn to appreciate the small things in life when you don't always get to do them.

That is the highlights of my so called life.